I'm changing my hair soon, and I have no idea what I'm gonna do with it. Here are some I like, not necessarily what I'm gonna do though.

Confliction

Somedays, I want to run away
from this or that
and I say why the hell not

Sometimes the road I want to go down
isn't the right one to follow
but why not find one
that is just as satisfying but
less conflicting in the end

I try to help u when u feel this way
but how can I possibly know the right words
when I don't know them for myself
but helping you helps me
whoever you are, and wherever your going

Of all the love I have inside of me
I cant solve all the worlds problems
can't find all the missing children
can't solve world hunger
can't find the cure for cancer

When we feel like we should be getting somewhere
maybe were not suppose to be
I cant find any comfort in that
so i just ignore it...

Play me a song on your guitar
let me hear that voice again
and soothe me away
far from this place
just me and your song

This I can find comfort in
all else has failed
and has fallen onto its knees
but I have your song
"ooh ooh ooh ooh"
Take me to that riverside

Charm Me

If I could have just one night
I'd sneak you into my forbidden bunk

We would play
We would dance

I'd scatter your potent frame
under my insatiable essence

I'd charm every last molecule
every last desire

My body aches to be close to you
and trembles just at the thought

I'm scared that it might be to much
I'm scared to get lost inside of you

I find your magnetic allure
to much to handle

From your words
to your toes

From your eyes
to your wit

It might never be love
but a definite erotic union

If I could have just one night

The last smoke...

I smoked my last cigarette
I'm kinda mad, kinda sad

I wish I had another one
To wrap my lips around
To inhale, exhale

Watching it burn slowly
Letting myself intertwine
with the blue and black smoke
Ever so delicately, flicking the ashes

Share one with a lover
Share one with a friend
Share one with a stranger

When it just gets to your fingers
Its all done
All gone

Another butt for the ashtray
Another moment gone
That you wanted to last forever

I miss my friend of self destruction
But I know I'll see you again

Anime

I really hate to say this... but I think i actually found an anime that i enjoy watching. Troys been teasing me about it, and I can't try to start a battle of how I dont believe its anime. Face the facts Kat.... It's fucken anime. Oooooo and btw, the new episode is on tonight hahaha. It's a badass show though. It's not like that pokemon bullshit.

I had a few drinks last night, so if I bugged you, I'm sorry. I tend to do that, and It's annoying. Like a excited puppy that wont stop trying to get you to throw the ball.

I've been listening to music all morning. Feels good. Rammstein, Marilyn Manson, and Slipknot, System of a Down, Sepultura, and peeping tom. All morning yum. ooo sepultura. I listen to my music way to loud. I can feel the bass all the way to my bed tehe. The upstairs neighbor isnt home during the day, so its all good. I bet you can feel the bass up there too haha. Wanna see one of my all time favorite videos? Of course you do ;)



It's not the best quality, but I couldnt get the better one. I love this video. For lots of reasons.

I guess I didnt really have anything to say, lol. Just wanted to write I suppose.

OH Jay McCarroll

First, I would like to say, that I would never buy anything from a big designer, mainly because i love thrift shops, they have the best clothes anyways. But theres something about watching a designers show. It's amazing. I agree that most designers have ugly ass clothes, but there are a few that I've really come to like. Such as Jay. This is a beautiful form of art to me. I enjoy watching the few designers out there who kick ass. Check em out sometime!

You must know I'm a big fan. The guys an awesome designer. He won't use any fur, or leather, kudos to you Jay. Some of the designs were ugly as hell, but there were a few I really liked. Not nearly as much as his show he put on during the season finale of season 1, but still good. I gotta show my two favorites.



First I do have to say that I hate the pants. I mean one balloon would of been okay, but not 5 million. And the top isn't that fantastic either, but I loooove the colors. It's very preppy but I can let that slide because it does have a cool funk to it. And not to mention, I love the model. He's hot. He looks so much like a guy I've liked for about 4 years. Hawt. Should call that guy....



This one is actually pretty pleasant. I really enjoy his colors, and his lines that he does in all his clothing. It fits her figure so well, its sexy. She had such a nice walk too. It's hard to tell but the front has pockets like a hoodie does. That bag she's holding can go though. Haha.

I'm not a critic by any means. I just wanted to share because the new season of Project Runway is coming out on Nov. 14th! I really can't wait. I actually thought it was premiering tonight, and was dissapointed to find out it wasn't :(. I'm not sure who will read this, but I hope you enjoy my page!

I hate days like this..

Today, i cant do anything i need to. I have loads of laundry to do, a house to clean, Zoey can't decide what she wants to do, or wear, or say, I need a shower, I'm thirsty, I need to do yoga. It all sounds like it shouldn't be a problem, but today it is. I need to make a few phone calls too, and I can't seem to get the time.

Why can't i organize time? Any time i try to, i feel rushed and I hate that. I really admire people who can do what they need to do, and not feel like its almost a burden. I'm not always like this, I have days where I can get everything done in an hour. But not today. What i really want to be doing, is listening to some music and daydreaming. But then, theres that guilt thing that comes with it. I'm really hungry, and can feel my sugars dropping, but you guessed it, I'm not gonna eat. Not that I dont want to, I'll get the kitchen and just stand there, and be irritated that I'm even trying to do anything. I need something to smash. It feels like my brain is going a million miles per hour, and i cant stop it.

Well, I guess i feel better. So, I'm gonna go fold some clothes and make a call ;)